It has been quite awhile since I sat down to write on my blog. Unbelieveably, I think I may have run out of things to say. : ) I found out last night that someone actually read my blog and it inspired me to write again. Thanks, Jenni. : )

My husband has moved back home, no more working out of town, so that is probably why I have less to say, there is a living breathing human being to talk to and bounce thoughts off. It is good to have him home again even though we are living in an uncertain time and wondering what the future holds. We are trying as never before to step forward in faith that our Lord will do exactly what he said he would do and that is to love us and supply our daily needs.

We had a busy weekend, we babysat for my son's children on Friday night. I guess we were boring because Ian went to bed at 8pm. We enjoyed getting to hear him say his alphabet, which is quite entertaining. Mac is only 9 weeks old and he just slept and ate and slept some more. I can't wait til he is up and running around like Ian. On Saturday we kept Monty's daughter's children. Mallory has been asking to go to Sunday School so we had them sleep over Saturday night and took them to SS on Sunday. They are such sweet little girls and love each other very much. They were both excited to go to church and loved their classes. Emily even remembered what her story was about, but when we picked her up she wanted to know, "Where is my Mallory?" (her big sister). Their dad picked them up after church and we spent the rest of the day with Monty's mom and dad. She is recovering from open heart surgery and is doing very well. I am thankful for the blessings in my life and for my children and grandchildren. Over the course of the weekend I was supposed to see my youngest son and that did not take place. I could never express the love I have for him, as it is hard for any mother to truly express her love for any child she has. He has made choices for his life and I agree, it is his life, but the choices he has made has caused there to be a division in our family. It doesn't diminish our love for him but we miss him and long for the former familiarity, friendship, laughter and love of family we shared with him. I would like him to know that I will always love him, always cherish getting to be his mom, and will always welcome him when he is ready to come home. I know he loves us and misses us also.

Parenting is hard, marriage is hard at times, and life is hard on a daily basis pretty much. I do know that my truth north is my Lord and Saviour and I want to be that one woman, that through the hardships of circumstances that come into my life, can be a blessing to other women and praise my God because of his love and provision that enables me to face these things in life. Lord you are my all in all, through the power of your Holy Spirit, help me be the exceptional woman that captures your truth from your word and applies it to my life to be a blessing to you first, my family second, and others third.

Easter 2010

As Easter came this year my husband and I have been undergoing a transition of sorts and I have been mainly preoccupied with those changes. We asked God at the first of this year to give us abundant life in him as promised in the scriptures but you don't get the abundant life unless you are living and breathing the Savior and His Word. It has been kind of scary to pray for a life that is full of surprises, because I don't like surprises, but coming to this point in my Christian life it has to be all or nothing. I am tired of living in fear of what might happen in my future or my children's futures. I serve a Sovereign God who tells me in His Word that he loves me so much he gave his only child to die on a cross that I might have forgiveness of sin and walk with Him as His child also. So at age 55 either I believe Him or I don't. There is no middle of the road or riding the fence. If we believe lets put our faith into action and action into our faith. I had prayed before the service this morning that He would speak to me in a personal and mighty way as I worshipped Him for what He did on the cross for me and that He rose again on that 3rd day and conquered death for all of us, but as I sat there my heart felt heavy and burdened with all that is going on in my life and with those I love, then someone sang a song about mercy, God's mercy, he is all we have and he is our only hope for the future. That song made me think about all those that are out there that don't believe in Christ, that were brought up to know him and have turned their back on what he did just for them. Can I just say, if you were the only person that needed forgiveness He would still have died and rose again just for you? It is a most personal gift He gave us and through this gift we know Him as our Savior but He also wants to know us intimately in every aspect of our lives. My heart was broken this morning as I thought of those that have turned from Him to pursue the lusts of their heart, using God's love for us as an excuse to be selfish and do what we want, instead of knowing what he did, understanding what He did for us, and wanting to give our lives back to Him through serving Him, worshipping him and honoring Him with the life He gave us. Heavenly Father, I do pray for mercy, mercy and more mercy for that person that has turned away from you to live unto themselves instead of unto you. May you give them sight that they may see the truth this special day when we celebrate your Son's resurrection and victory over death. I praise you heavenly Father.